2012!

GAH, right now it's already 16 jan 2012..man, really stressed up..feel so lifeless, and mama somehow makes me feel like i'm a loser.. like how suck i'm dont know how to cook...how to carry a baby..

actually to be honest, the year after spm or just whatever time when we finish high school.. i feel baffled..like nak wat apa lepas ni...? wat to do? there are so many many question marks... it's everywhere.

idk... and i dont have people to talk to about it... and i'm so scared about the driving test (daa, i know it's only computer-based test only) but just ..it's so stressful.idk This is makes me mad...i dont what i wanna do.. and even if i do know what i can do ..i just feel like it's no use.

nothing can make me feel calm..now i want to watch itazura na kiss

That girl (the whore)

I'm not usually the kind of girl who call people whore.i do speak of this in my heart only... yeah, and all her bimbo frenzs are real bitch. Why are they, making a scandal with my bf and that whore..i just want to punch them.. yeah, i'm not that hell ta mad anymore..but, it does hurt..and the way the said "OOOOOOOOOOOPSSSS" when realize i was around...was so dumb and so no brain.. maybe thats why..bcoz they dont have brain i bet.

i'm juz mad... i never done anything bad to them.. why the hell they're making me feel bad.by taking away my bf... i mean..whatever..i hope one day. those whore and bitches would taste their own medicine

stress!

aaaah..i'm so stress out.. feeling nauseous and i feel like wanna puke..hell, i already vomit anyway..but, just saliva not the digested food or whatsoever.. huh..rafiq is trouble which = mama is worried...nonom with her own world..i got intervensi...cant study under this hellish stressful moment..i hope i can deal with....huh..hope god can resolve this problem as fast as possible

life

honestly, idk why... but i still feel like an outsider of my own class.. its like them..them...me ...ME... urgh...its so frustrating.. and i just realize that my 5M1 class is actually 1M class..or maybe just beside of them..god! no wonder i feel sad aura..its still haunt even after 4 years.. and yeah like always... girls are such a groupie.. well, at least the new gurl eventhough how gedik she is..and how like carefree she's...(uhhh..like not at home even its 11 pm, honestly!)..she treats people evenly...yeah..its not entrily their fault,,its also mine..i got problem trusting people..i'm naive, ...god..i can even make  a long list of this..well, whatever..everyone screw up and perfect in their own way... fuh... well, my work is just becoming the better version of me.. i dont need to please everyone..its their lost.i will always be me.. the me that i know.. i would never be perfect..and i'm a trainweck sometimes. but, if someone were willing to befriend with me despite my (blablabla long list) i would be thankful to god. plus, annoyingly when i gave up on him...god suddenly makes something to make me like him back..he's just very loveable..u know..me ?not! ... well, que sera sera..whatever will be..will be... hope tomorrow would be a nice day for me and everyone in this earth..chiaow!

Balik kampung...ohhh.balik kampung hati sedih

Kampung!

semua orng ske kmpng...Aku pun ske kmpng gak..Tapi aku x ske balik kmpng pahang..Aku ske giler balik kmpng kat kelantan..tapi dah berzmn dah aku x blk sana. Ini lah antara sebab2nya

1) Mmg sah aku x de benda nak wat
bkn ada kwn , bnyk orng tua, pastu aku kena senyum palsu je, tv pun x leh caya.Astro x de..hrpkan fon dgn radio je la....

2) tiap2 hari aku kena layan kerenah ayah aku yg kdng tu agak mencabar iman...
dia punya panas baran tu.....dgn adik aku yg ske wat hal... kwn ayah aku yg agak unik pun 1 mslh
yelah aku ckp cam bdk gedik je..cuma kdng2 aku x thn dgn skp dia yg fkr psl diri sendiri je
Sng cerita aku selalu tension kat situ.Dia wat salah x pe..Aku wat slh manpus..Cuti apa macam ni?

3) Berdpn dgn beruk and the geng
rumah kesayangan ayah ku tu dah la jauh dari orng ramai. beruk pun ske la..seram aku ble fkr beruk nak dtng serang rumah aku..ps :mak aku prnh nampak beruk ramai2 nak dtg umah kte

4) house cleaning!

duh, i hate cleaning that house... orng tu biarkan kotor ...aku pulak cam nak mati kemas.Aku ingat lagi cam nak mati aku kemas kotak bangang yg penuh dgn tahi cicak , lipas...Siap ada bangkai tikus dlm almari baju..Cuba korang bayangkan. Mmg sah geli gler la.......

5) toilet!
toilet last time aku gi cuma ada mentol sebesar tgn aku je....
dah la x de pintu...Aku ni pompuan...kalau x de pintu ko rasa nak mandi x?..blh ayah aku ckp mandi kat sungai je..Nasib baik tmpt toilet tu agak gelap..dan telah diletak kain..untuk tutup..wat aku rasa zaman caveman lak...

Homo people..!

urgh! honestly i'm sick of seeing hot dude or any dude turn into gay people..I'm sorry if i offend someone.. but,i just cant stand when gay people dumb good gurl just for other guy..i read in the book breakup bibble..(the heroin dad dumps his wife(the heroin mother) so he can go out with hid (boyfriend)! honestly!
i just finish watching Ugly Betty and there;s a hot dude name Austin ( i remember another character that i like has this name)
Aku mmng x fhm ble x ksh la laki ke pompuan ke nak mnt sejenis..Taw la korang mmng syok ! tapi x fkr kat tuhan ke..Aku x ske la ..skrng imej yg ke arah homosexual tu asyik aku ingat je..semak hdp aku !
urgh!

Introduction

Well, first for most i need to tell u about myself...I'm alia...I like my name very much ..and my beloved mom choose that to me! geee thanks mommy...anyway, the reason why i  make this blog is that i'm very lonely.And somehow i got a (very big fight) with both of my best (guys & gals ) frenz..thats suck like ......crap...i feel so damn lonely...And i use to chat with them online..Now i cant..i used to talk to them for every silly things that i found very funny and some bad things that happens to me.so..I was thinking maybe i can share it u guys...Lol...this blog is a secret of mine..if u're reading it .u're very lucky as u're reading my diary....!
chiaow..btw,i'm malay and speaks bm but somehow i feel like "speaking" today..lol..bye!