life

honestly, idk why... but i still feel like an outsider of my own class.. its like them..them...me ...ME... urgh...its so frustrating.. and i just realize that my 5M1 class is actually 1M class..or maybe just beside of them..god! no wonder i feel sad aura..its still haunt even after 4 years.. and yeah like always... girls are such a groupie.. well, at least the new gurl eventhough how gedik she is..and how like carefree she's...(uhhh..like not at home even its 11 pm, honestly!)..she treats people evenly...yeah..its not entrily their fault,,its also mine..i got problem trusting people..i'm naive, ...god..i can even make  a long list of this..well, whatever..everyone screw up and perfect in their own way... fuh... well, my work is just becoming the better version of me.. i dont need to please everyone..its their lost.i will always be me.. the me that i know.. i would never be perfect..and i'm a trainweck sometimes. but, if someone were willing to befriend with me despite my (blablabla long list) i would be thankful to god. plus, annoyingly when i gave up on him...god suddenly makes something to make me like him back..he's just very loveable..u know..me ?not! ... well, que sera sera..whatever will be..will be... hope tomorrow would be a nice day for me and everyone in this earth..chiaow!